Custody

So, I was on myspace...
[surprise, surprise, LOL]
And I think to myself,
"I wonder if my asshole, ex, baby's daddy has stopped
chewing on a dick, long enough to wonder about his biological child."
[LOL]
And I tell myself, don't even waste your time.
He hasn't messaged me,
called me [before my phone was off]
or anything.
It becomes clear that he's only out for his own self interest.
Well, I visited his page anyway.

He considers himself to be some kind of "rapper"
so his page shows two new songs...
Like I said, "SELF INTEREST".
Not even a thought for his child.
[clears throat]
Let me clarify,
MY DAUGHTER.

And my signifacant other's.
He's been around since she was hmm..
three or four months?
Her sperm donor didn't meet her til she was 5 months...
He's a sorry excuse for a "father",
I wouldn't even call him that much!
What a sorry ass excuse of a man...
Well, I'm done with his excuses and bullshit.
I was done with it Months ago,
when he didn't even remember the day my baby turned two.
I had to call him 2 weeks later...

Well, that sorry, stupid, Nothin-nowhere nigga
can Kiss my ass,
and eat a dick!
I'm takin his ass to court for custody of my baby.
And Most likely,
I'll win.
=]

Then the man she loves, and calls daddy,
who loves her in return,
will finally be able to be her daddy on paper.
OFFICIALLY.
Then he'll adopt her...
and that dead beat ass motherfucker won't have shit to say...

-♥


It's all good though.

Good boy gone Bad?

So, What's really up with Chris Brown and Rihanna?

I've heard and read alot of different things about this...
I was disgusted.
This is horrible..
[And since it hasn't been denied, it's probably really her.]

But, Did anyone notice the [XI-IV] on this^ Woman's shoulder?
Is it a Tattoo?
Or is that something on the picture...?

It's also been said in the media that Rihanna may have been pregnant
when Chris Brown [allegedly] assaulted her.

Well, She dosen't look pregnant a few weeks later,
but who can tell with pregnancy.
It's a mysterious thing sometimes.
At least she looks better...
[i don't see any markings on her shoulder though..]


I'm a fan of Rihanna,
But i do like Chris Brown too.
I was shocked to hear that he was the one who
[allegedly] beat up Rihanna.
He never seemed like that type of person on TV.
But I guess that just goes to show,
Celebrities are just normal people
on the inside.

He's probably sick about it anyway.
He lost some millions of dollars,
due to the labels that dropped him...
[Wrigley's]

The question is, will people still buy his music?
I think yes,
Because like they said on 95.5 the beat,
If R. Kelly can piss on an underage girl
and have sex with her,
and still sell records and live as a celebrity,
Then,
I guess Chris Brown can still b a celebrity
after beating his [possibly pregnant] girlfriend.

[tsk, tsk]
What is the world coming to?

-♥-

Dead and Gone

So...
"I've been traveling on this too long,
I'm just trying to find my way back home,
Cause the old mee's dead and gone, dead and gone..."

Uh, I'm feeling this song.

I've been this way, in this situation, for too long.
I need a change.
The death of the old me [when it happens]
will spawn a new me.
A new [insert my name here] aka PJ Sparkles.
LOL.

"I turn my head to the east, I don't see nobody by my side,
I turn my head to the West, still nobody in sight,
So I turn my head to the North, and swallow that pill they call Pride..."

Haha. That's exactly how I feel lately.
Nobody at all by my side, and I'm dry swallowing a pill the size of a quarter.


♥
More on this later.
Maybe I'll feel better enough to write more
later...

Theives, Not Friends.

It's funny how people will take advantage of a helping hand,
And steal for someone who offered them aid.

So, me and my significant other tried to help this couple we met.
They were homeless, and she [supposedly] was pregnant.
We met them when the husband offered to fix my sig's car.
His wife was with him,
and they seemed like decent people
who just happened to be down on their luck,
like us!
We smoked our green with them,
gave them money, bus passes,
fed them,
And let them sleep on the floor for a night.
Now I think this is being pretty generous considering
that we don't have much ourselves!
We were becoming friends with these people!
I was conversating with this chick like a friend,
and my sig was getting to know her husband.
Normally I don't trust people so quickly,
But I guess they had me fooled!
The other night they were at the house when my sig
was at work,
And the husband kept asking me if my sig had been home.
I didn't know why he was asking,
so I said no.
[Even though my sig had been home, I didn't know why he wanted to know,
and if something seems fishy like that, I'm not going to willingly give up info.!]

Come to find out he was asking because he'd stolen some green!
He was asking because he knew my sig would notice if some green was missing,
but chances are, I wouldn't.
And I didn't.
They also stole half a pack of cigarettes that night.
And my sig told me later,
that more green had gone missing the night they stayed.

ugh.

This hurts my heart!
I trusted these people!
I let them come around my kids!

Now, I know a little weed and some cigarettes dosen't seem like a big deal.
But it was my sig's hard earned money that was spent on those things.
And these people had the audacity to steal from us,
when we shared what little we do have with them!
We didn't have to share,
We did it out of the kindness of our hearts.

I can't believe I trusted them.
I'll never trust another random fuckin person.
EVER.

♥

Naming my Blog

So I was finally able to name this blog!
=]
"The Story Of a Not So Average Girl."
Why didn't I name it sooner, and what's up with
the name i did pick,
You may ask?
Because.
=]
I wanted to call it "The story of a Girl"
Because whenever I thought about it, That's the first thing that came to mind.
The story of a girl line comes from a song I heard a long time ago,
and it just stuck with me.

"This is the story of a girl, who cried a river and drowned the whole world,
While she looked so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her... When she smiles..."

To me, It's Perfect!
It's a me, in a single song lyric.
I feel like in the bigger aspect of things,
If God is looking at my life in a list of all the other lives
on this planet,
It's just the story of a female he put on this planet.
I'm a big cry baby [or used to be]
and I've shed soo many tears for so many things and people.
and I'm not very photogenic [lol]!
Seriously though,
The last part,
Well, It's in reference to the people who I smile for,
the ones I really trust,
[which I've never done alot of]
and who love me in return.

So, dear reader[s] ♥;
i Give you my Story.
May it help you understand,
[or better understand, if you know me outside of blogger]
why I am the way I am.

Most of the time I feel like a raving lunatic.
[lol.]

♥

HARD KNOCK LiFE

When this song first came out,
I couldn't relate to it as much as I thought
other people could.
But in the past few years,
I think I can relate to it
more then most people.
I'm living in a homeless shelter
with my two daughters,
having no job because i'm trying
to go to school
yet, never having enough time or money
to actually go!
And so I was informed that if I do not go to school on Monday,
I will be dropped.
ugh.
AND
I just got a letter informing me that it is time
to begin paying back my school loans...
I'm not even done with school yet.
=/
I am through with it ALL!

To make matters worse...
the significant other just [probably]
got fired yesterday.

[sigh.]

I really just want to smoke,
and just forget about everything.
But, no $, not possible.

[lol.]

But I'm not the only one who's going through some shit.
Apparently it really is a RECESSiON.
But I hope it gets better.
For Everyone.
[i ♥ u, CBS.]
And I'm keeping it all in my prayers.

Until God gives me a reprieve,
I guess i have no other option.

But at least i can comfort myself with the knowledge that,
After Every Struggle we Overcome, a blessing is our reward.


♥

As Of Febauary..

So dear reader,
if you've been wondering where i've been...
It's a long story.
First,
We moved into the Almost home
Shelter on 2/2/09.
The girls are still adjusting,
And I guess I am too.
The situation is still pretty shitty,
but I'm trying to make the best of it!!
The rules here are crazy though..
have to be home by 7,
class Monday - Thursday, 7-8,
Kids in bed by 8,
Chore 9-10,
Me in bed by 10.

I stay up late anyway...
LOL
And let me just add...
Riding the bus SUCKS ASS!
=p
Anyway,
I got my new camera on Monday!
It's a Sony Cybershot...
&& i love it!
It takes GREAT pictures!
=]

Today was a bad day though....
This morning at 9:30 am,
some bitch ass cop put my significant other in jail,
for driving an unregistered vehile without a license.
And all he did was drive to the gas station on the corner,
Which i can clearly see from my front door.
His bail was $1000.
So I went to a bail bonds man
and got him out for $133.
ugh,
then we went to Clarke County jail to get his ass out.
The most ridiculous thing I ever heard in my life....
I'm tired and the lil one keeps typing on the keyboard!!
♥