Good Boy Gone Bad [pt.2]

I'm sure everyone remembers this photo:



Rihanna's battered face after her "alleged"
fight with Chris Brown.

In a previous blog i wondered about the tattoo on the battered woman's
shoulder.
Well, today i found this picture of Rihanna:
So i'm sadly assuming that the tmz photo really is her.
Sad.
Really.

It 's a fuckin shame that men can get away with whippin a woman's ass,
and us women just take the shit.
And keep going back!
I can't knock ya, Rihanna,
Cause i've been there,
But we as women need to stand up and say,

I'M NOT TAKING THAT SHIT ANYMORE!
It's NEVER OKAY for a man to put his hands on a woman.
not ever.

♥

HALO[S]

So, Beyonce's "Halo"
when i first heard it,
i hated it.
Becasue Beyonce makes some great songs,
but they're usually about a man.
[Halo, cater to you.. etc.]
I'm sorry, but i can't stand a song about
a man being the center of my world.
Maybe because 95% of the men i've ever had in my life
have done me dirty,
[personal experiences]
or maybe i'm just a pessimistic kind of person.
[shrug]
who knows, who cares,
i just can't get down with the message in the song.
So, i actully listened to the words,
and i feel like i can apply the song's meaning to my kids.
=]

"Remember those walls i built,
Well. baby they're tumbling down,
they didn't even put up a fight,
they didn't even make a sound
i found a way to let you in,
but i never really had a doubt
standing in the light of your halo,
i got my angel[s] now...
...Everywhere i'm looking now,
i'm surrounded by your embrace,
Baby i can see your halo,
you know your my saving grace.
..
Hitting me like a ray of sun, burning through my darkest night,
...think i'm addicted to your light.
I swore i'd never fall again,
but this don't even feel like falling,
Gravity can't forget to pull me back to the ground again.
♥------♥

These kids, though they may not have been planned,
and though i may not have been ready for them,
God sent them to me for a reson.
I was in a very dark place
and they came along like rays of sunshine...
and saved me from myself.
i swore i'd never let anyone near my heart again,
and yet,
there they are.
I love them so much it hurts sometimes.
I would lay down my life anyday for either of them.
And everytime i turn around,
in pain, in joy, in love, in sadness,
they're always behind me.
And i thank God everyday for them.
Without them....
Where would i be?


...♥

Good boy gone Bad?

So, What's really up with Chris Brown and Rihanna?

I've heard and read alot of different things about this...
I was disgusted.
This is horrible..
[And since it hasn't been denied, it's probably really her.]

But, Did anyone notice the [XI-IV] on this^ Woman's shoulder?
Is it a Tattoo?
Or is that something on the picture...?

It's also been said in the media that Rihanna may have been pregnant
when Chris Brown [allegedly] assaulted her.

Well, She dosen't look pregnant a few weeks later,
but who can tell with pregnancy.
It's a mysterious thing sometimes.
At least she looks better...
[i don't see any markings on her shoulder though..]


I'm a fan of Rihanna,
But i do like Chris Brown too.
I was shocked to hear that he was the one who
[allegedly] beat up Rihanna.
He never seemed like that type of person on TV.
But I guess that just goes to show,
Celebrities are just normal people
on the inside.

He's probably sick about it anyway.
He lost some millions of dollars,
due to the labels that dropped him...
[Wrigley's]

The question is, will people still buy his music?
I think yes,
Because like they said on 95.5 the beat,
If R. Kelly can piss on an underage girl
and have sex with her,
and still sell records and live as a celebrity,
Then,
I guess Chris Brown can still b a celebrity
after beating his [possibly pregnant] girlfriend.

[tsk, tsk]
What is the world coming to?

-♥-

Dead and Gone

So...
"I've been traveling on this too long,
I'm just trying to find my way back home,
Cause the old mee's dead and gone, dead and gone..."

Uh, I'm feeling this song.

I've been this way, in this situation, for too long.
I need a change.
The death of the old me [when it happens]
will spawn a new me.
A new [insert my name here] aka PJ Sparkles.
LOL.

"I turn my head to the east, I don't see nobody by my side,
I turn my head to the West, still nobody in sight,
So I turn my head to the North, and swallow that pill they call Pride..."

Haha. That's exactly how I feel lately.
Nobody at all by my side, and I'm dry swallowing a pill the size of a quarter.


♥
More on this later.
Maybe I'll feel better enough to write more
later...

HARD KNOCK LiFE

When this song first came out,
I couldn't relate to it as much as I thought
other people could.
But in the past few years,
I think I can relate to it
more then most people.
I'm living in a homeless shelter
with my two daughters,
having no job because i'm trying
to go to school
yet, never having enough time or money
to actually go!
And so I was informed that if I do not go to school on Monday,
I will be dropped.
ugh.
AND
I just got a letter informing me that it is time
to begin paying back my school loans...
I'm not even done with school yet.
=/
I am through with it ALL!

To make matters worse...
the significant other just [probably]
got fired yesterday.

[sigh.]

I really just want to smoke,
and just forget about everything.
But, no $, not possible.

[lol.]

But I'm not the only one who's going through some shit.
Apparently it really is a RECESSiON.
But I hope it gets better.
For Everyone.
[i ♥ u, CBS.]
And I'm keeping it all in my prayers.

Until God gives me a reprieve,
I guess i have no other option.

But at least i can comfort myself with the knowledge that,
After Every Struggle we Overcome, a blessing is our reward.


♥

"Live ya Life"

I am soo feeling this song lately! It's my fave song of the moment...[My ALLTiME fave is "If This world were Mine" By Luther Vandross.♥] So I think I can relate to this song..
On more then one level, I know what you're thinking..["It's just a song" right?]
Well I really ♥ Music. So when I hear a song, I really listen to the words...
Most songs have a... message? I guess that's the best word for it, LOL.
It's basically a message from the artist, that helps the listener relate to the song on a personal level. Most good songs have them... excluding dance songs.
Anyway, I really love this song! =]

The Lyrics:

"Live ya Life" T.I. [feat. Rihanna] on the "Paper Trail" Ablbum
[thanks to "letssingit.com"]

[Chorus - Rihanna]: 
You're gonna be a shining star, fancy clothes, fancy car-ars
And then you'll see, you're gonna go far
Cause everyone knows, who you are-are
So live your life, ay ay ay
Instead of chasing that paper
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay
Ain't got no time for no haters 
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay
No telling where it'll take you
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay
Cause I'm a paper chaser
Just living my life (ay), my life (oh), my life (ay), my life (oh) 
Just living my life (ay), my life (oh), my life (ay), my life (oh) 

[Verse 1 - T.I.]: 
Never mind what haters say, ignore them 'til they fade away
Amazing they ungrateful after all the game I gave away
Safe to say I paved the way, for you cats to get paid today
You still be wasting days away, nah had I never saved the day
Consider them my protégé, homage I think they should pay
Instead of being gracious, they violated in a major way
I never been a hater still I love them, in a crazy way
Some say they so yay and no they couldn't even work on Labor Day
It ain't that they black or white, their hands of area in shades of grey
I'm west side anyway, even if I left the day it fades away
Some move away to make a way not move away cause they afraid
I'll go back to the hood and all you ever did was take away
I pray for patience but they make me want to melt they face away
Like I once made them scream, now I could make them put the K's away
Been thuggin' all my life, can't say I don't deserve to take a break
If you ever see me catch a case, and watch my future fade away

[Chorus - Rihanna]: 
You're gonna be a shining star, fancy clothes, fancy car-ars
And then you'll see, you're gonna go far
Cause everyone knows, who you are-are
So live your life, ay ay ay
Instead of chasing that paper
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay
Ain't got no time for no haters 
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay
No telling where it'll take you
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay
Cause I'm a paper chaser
Just living my life

[Verse 2 - T.I.]: 
I'm the opposite of moderate, immaculately polished with 
The spirit of a hustler and the swagger of a college kid
Allergic to the counterfeit, impartial to the politics
Articulate but still would grab a nigga by the collar quick
Whoever havin problems with they record sales just holla Tip
If that don't work and all else fail, then turn around and follow Tip
I got love for the game but ay I'm not in love with all of it
Could do without the fame and rappers nowadays a comedy
The hootin' and the hollerin', back and forth with the arguing
Where you from, who you know, what you make and what kind of car you in 
Seems as though you lost sight of whats important when depositing
checks into your bank account, and you up out of poverty
Your values is in disarray, prioritizin horribly
Unhappy with the riches cause you piss poor morally
Ignoring all prior advice and forewarning
And we mighty full of ourselves all of a sudden aren't we?

[Chorus - Rihanna]: 
You're gonna be a shining star, fancy clothes, fancy car-ars
And then you'll see, you're gonna go far
Cause everyone knows, who you are-are
So live your life, ay ay ay
Instead of chasing that paper
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay
Ain't got no time for no haters 
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay
No telling where it'll take you
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay
Cause I'm a paper chaser
Just living my life (ay), my life (oh), my life (ay), my life (oh) 
Just living my life (ay), my life (oh), my life (ay), my life (oh)

[Bridge - Rihanna]:
Got everybody watching what I do
Come walk in my shoes
And see the way I'm living if you really want to
Got my mind on my money
And I'm not going nowhere
So keep on getting your paper and keep on climbing
Look in the mirror and keep on shining
Till the game end, till the clock stop
We gonna post up on the top spot
Livin my life, my life
Brand new city, got my whole team with me
My life, my life
I do it how I wanna do
I'm livin my life, my life
I will never lose now
Livin my life, my life
And I'm not stoppin

So live your life.



Knowledge I take away from this song:
Live your life in a way that makes you happy.
Don't worry about what anyone else thinks!
Because life isn't about pleasing other people. Nobody understands the situation you're in but you!
And maybe someone who's in it with you. But the Haters?
They don't understand, and who cares if they don't?
Truly it's None of their buisness.
So, Do what you do! Make this money,
Handle your business,
To put it simply,

-Live your Life!